4 posts from 2008

The dawn crept slowly across the sky, making me think that I was late for work. I looked at the time just to make sure. It looks like summer is making its way to my northern hemisphere; my days will last longer for the next 3 or 4 months. I used to love summers as a kid. Summers meant vacations but now as an adult, I take my vacations in the winter.

I can’t say that I look forward to the summer months. It hasn’t been a good year for me so far. There’s little I can expect to gain in the upcoming months. I’ve lost touch with dear friends over a stupid dispute. As immature as the disagreement might have been matters not because no one was eager to make amends. Though I have little hope that 2008 could improve, I have high expectations that 2009 will be better.

My waves of anguish are receding and I can still smile optimistically. As the sun turns the black sky to blue and hides the stars, I’m reminded that each day should be taken with the same approach. Darkness doesn’t last forever; there is always a light at the end of it. That’s something worth looking forward to!

In the movie, it seemed either many knew bits of Gia or no one knew nothing about her. She was a different person to different people. Yeah...I'm exactly like that. I don't really believe that a single person knows everything about me. It makes more sense to state that various people in my life know various aspects of my being. No one can claim to know the exact details of someone's experience of me. I'm a different person to different people. It's nice that way and perhaps easier that way too. I've searched my whole life searching for 1 person to love everything about me with little success. I've found that the odds of winning th lottery is far greater than finding that 1 person. I've now found happiness in finding many people to love the many parts of me that exist separately.

When I am with Loops, I am the confident bad girl.

When I am with Natasha, I'm shy and humble.

When I am with Joe, I'm a total bitch and when I am with my co-workers I am the rebel and the freak.

These are aspects of me that only I see and no one else does. But perhaps if you stay awhile, you too might see what I'm talking about...

Just call me Gia! Welcome to my world!